I'm Home Now

But I shouldn't be. I should be out on the golf course. Driving a golf cart. Not riding with someone else.

This is utterly ridiculous.

Today I had my heart set to drive a golf cart around 18 holes after a work meeting on my day off. But things didn't go my way today. I wasn't able to borrow a golf cart for myself. Instead, I was denied any chance of one and decided to go home instead. Angry. Not pissed, but just angry. Well, okay, maybe deep down inside I am pissed.. and shocked. I could almost feel my aura (or chakra for you Naruto fans out there) turn red with anger.

Here I am, a server who has dedicated three and half years to CCRB, wanting to drive on the course just uplift my spirits by seeing all of the green grass and breathing in the fresh air. But no, I'm not allowed my own cart. It's not like I'm going to do donuts or even steal the cart.

I have good intentions.

Even though they may be purely selfish, who am I hurting by letting me drive by myself? I wanted my own cart. Not to ride with someone else. I wanted that small sense of freedom.

There were two dozen carts down there. I wasn't asking for Ryan Leaf's Hummer-cart. One ghetto cart would've been fine for me. I felt like a young kid waking up on Christmas Day and not getting a gift from Santa. I was heart-broken.

I am a responsible adult. I would've taken care of my cart. But Adam wouldn't let me have my own. "That's all of the carts he can lend out." What's one more cart? There were a grip of other carts not being used. I highly doubt they were going to be used on a Monday. On a Monday, when it's already 3:oo PM. On a different note, Dee went with the others who got a cart. I heard she drove slow. I don't think they needed a baby-sitter. How retarded.

I'm done venting.

Vote for Your Favorite Video Game.. or Diablo

Video Game Title Fight!

Check the previous link to see which video game is superior. Surprisingly, Madden 2004 got KO'd by Mike Tyson's Punchout. You'll also notice that Halo just barely edged Quake II by 21 votes. How crazy is that?!On another note, Diablo is still hanging in there. They go up against Starcraft for the Azeroth Championship. I'm thinking that Diablo is going to win. Why? Coz I'm going to vote for them as much as I can.

The week after that is the Mushroom Kingdom Tournament. This could be where Diablo faces either Knights of the Old Republic or Zelda: Ocarina of Time. If Diablo wins that one, Diablo will have a tough battle against their next opponent: Halo or Half-life.

Why? Halo topped over 10K in it's opening week and Half-life got 9.5K. So on average, Halo scores about 9.6K votes in two rounds. Half-life is still in it's second round, so I can't average their score. As for Diablo, they surpassed 10K in both rounds. But I'm getting ahead of myself. I can't wait til the 24th of this month. We (Diablo and I) still have to make it past Starcraft and the XL6. I wonder who the extra-life 6 will go to. We prolly won't know until tomorrow.

So yeah, vote for your favorite video game (if your poll is open).

Diablo II

Oh, I forgot to tell you.. one late night, I installed Diablo II. Just like before I got addicted.. quickly. I played three nights in a row. I wanted to stop the addiction so I told myself, until the Lakers lose again, then I can play Diablo for one day. It's kinda like a win-win situation. But since the Lakers won last night, I've been having a Diablo itch. I wanna play. Argh.

This Wednesday the Lakers go to LA to play the Clips and on Friday the Clips come to the Staples Center to play the Lakers.

I know this is off subject, but maybe we could trade the Chargers for the Clippers. Don't make me go off on the Chargers..

Next week for the Lakers is scary. We got the Bucks, Sac-town and Minnesota. Damn. I think the Sac-town game is going to be a good one. With Minnesota, I can't see a win if we can't stop KG or Troy Hudson.

In the next 15 games we only play two teams from the eastern conference, the Bucks and Hornets. We got Sac-town and Portland twice. But we're going to be home for 12 of the 15, so that'll help us. The only road games we have are vs Sonics, Kings and Blazers.

Kobe vs T-Mac

Wow. Did any of you catch the Lakers/Magic game last night? What a good game. Reminded me of the Blazer game in the Western Conference Finals of 2000. Down by 15, the Lakers came back beat them 89-84. This time however, they were down by 19, had already missed 17 free throws and went about 0-9 in three pointers.

I thought this game was over. I said to myself that the Lakers are done for. And I was upset at them. Here are the Orlando Magic, the second worst team in the eastern conference.. no, wait.. the second worst team in the entire league, and we're losing by 19! Wtf izzat?! Here's where my reverse pessimisms came in. I kept on telling myself that they're going to be 24-6 at home. Still that'll be the third best in the league, but that means we're still in fourth.

I wanted to change the channel and watch the bio on one of my idols, Bruce Lee. You know, he died exactly 5 years before I was born? He was also born on the first hour of Chinese Dragon New Year.. But I digress.

Back to the game.. I kept on watching it. Deep down inside of me, I still had faith in my Lakers. I hate when the Lakers do this to me. Come back in the fourth. But what an awesome fourth quarter. It was a thriller. Down 61-50 by the half, T-Mac scored twenty-something and was on his way to score 40+ pts in the game. He was shooting threes like three steps behind the arc. They sent Foxy, Devean and Luke to defend him. He kept making shots all over the court. This was not looking good.

The second half was a different story. They sent Kobe to guard T-Mac and T-Mac guard Kobe. It was great. Kobe played good defense and offense too. He scored 24 of the Laker's 29 fourth quarter points. The Magic's lead was vanishing into thin air.

Tied at 102 and only 1.5 tics on the clock, the Magic had the ball. T-Mac got the ball and threw up a prayer. It was answered and it frickin' went in. I was shocked. We had three Lakers on him and he still managed to bank it in. Unfortunately for him, it was finger was on the ball when time expired. That's just too bad. But hey, it went in. Good shot.

The magic were so focused on stopping Kobe they forgot about the other Lakers. Especially Gary Payton who was sitting in the corner and drained the game-winning three pointer.

Whew. They had won. I almost had a heart attack that game. It should've been a blow out. The Lakers managed to miss 20 free throws and a shot a dismal 3 of 16 three-pointers. Wow.

This is a Great Way to Take a Picture

Strike a pose!

You Know Very Well.. (Who This Is)

Biggie Smalls drawn in Flash.

Better.. Much Better

Welp, I'm in class right now. It's not even 9:ooAM. I'm the only in here.. and I gotta tell ya. I feel much better.. much better. I've gotten a sudden urge of energy and I've been doing a lot school work lately. I just feel good. It could be the emails I've been getting from friends, taking walks in the morning, not sleeping in too long, the weather or any mix of the previous.

I'm almost done with my project too. Just a few more things I have to do and I'm done.. well I gotta render it, then I'm done. But yeah, I just wanted to let you know that I'll be on a break from school starting tomorrow. That is 98% the truth. I'm not positively sure that I'll have up to April 21st off though. But I'm already getting spring break fever.

Should I tell my boss so I get a few more hours to work? I'm not sure. I kinda just wanna just chill. But I need money. *sigh* I always need money. I really don't know how I can live like this. Leeching off parents for money, going to school and working part-time for a few hundred dollars. It's not much. I'm trying to get rid of my credit card bills.

Bills. Not the ones from Buffalo, but the ones that come from the mail man.. (the postal worker or whatever the PC term is nowadays) I have like $500 in my MasterCard, $400 in Laker Visa and like $600 in my student visa. $#!t.

So I think that my only option is to go back to work. Wow. I kinda don't like work. However, I do like money. I'm so broke. Money doesn't grow from trees. Not unless you take into consideration that lottery tickets are printed on paper and paper comes from trees. I wanna win the lotto.

No Passion or Drive

I just don't know what's wrong with me. I have absolutely no passion or drive to do any work except for my school work. I don't know why. I guess I have a lot on mind. So much, that I have to release and defrag my brain by blogging to an online journal where people can read and hopefully get something out my rant.

I need help. I can't sleep. And I just told ND this like two hours ago. But I just can't sleep. Is it my project that I'm worried about? Could be. I tried to borrow a couple of busts from a local comic store, so I could film them on a green screen. But the manager told me that he'd have to think about it. I'm hoping that he'll let me. After all, I have been a customer for over two years, brought in customers and.. and.. yeah. That's it. I'll see if I can negotiate with him again on Thursday. *sigh*

As for my blog site, I just don't have any desire to update the layout. Mark's doing a fantastic job with site, but I'm just so busy with school, I put off things.. lots of things that I want to do. Like hang out with friends and relax. Play Madden 2004. Snowboard. Update my website. Work out.

I guess it all comes down to this damn commute from Esco to San Diego. You know, I lose two hours every weekday driving in traffic? That can cause a serious toll my body. I'm lazy.. well, I know I've been lazy, but I'm even more lazy than before. I'm on the net more and watch a lot of tv.

Geez, this is seriously turning into a five-page essay. Do any of you have any suggestions to uplift my spirits? I know, I need a haircut. That would get a lot off my mind. And to clean my room too. My kung fu is not strong when my room is messy. Anyways, I bid you adieu.

Insomniac Haiku
Naturally up
Trip to Lala-land comes late
Carpool leaves at six.